Perspective. We all have it and sometimes we need to shift our own to stay motivated to keep doing what we do.
I was absent from the page because the food creating part of my brain felt burned out. Making things and trying to create recipes can get expensive. Especially when it doesn’t quite turn out the way you had hoped. Then, you get angry at yourself for wasting all that grass-fed beef, pastured pork, grass-fed butter, organic produce etc. I have mentioned how much I hate wasting food and money. I was mentally flogging myself for not slaving away in the kitchen on my days off. This led to more resentment about being in the kitchen when I wanted to sit and eat all the bon-bons. Ok, I wasn’t really eating bon-bons, but, you get the idea. So, less time was spent cooking, more time binge-watching Netflix and accruing lots of cuddles with one of the cats. Need shows to watch? I have a laundry list of stuff I crushed in a two day stretch.
Grace, permission and forgiveness. Three words that are getting a lot of vocalization these days. They sound kinda airy and artsy and full of silly fluffy things but, when applied to your life, they can be the hardest-hitting, life-changing clouts you could have ever needed.
You see, life is about choices. We make choices every day. We choose to get up and go to school or work. We choose to eat and to clean ourselves. We choose to move our bodies daily. Or not. Sometimes, those choices leave us feeling full, but not in a good way. I’m talking about that big “muffin” from Costco. Really, that thing is way too big to eat at one go and it is one layer of frosting away from being a cake. Those blueberries aren’t fooling anyone.
When we choose things that leave us full of regret, forgiveness floats to the surface. Cut yourself some slack. Yes, you ate the muffin. Yes, you feel sick from all the refined sugar and all the other less than ideal ingredients. Get over it already. Donate the rest of the muffins to the office or staff table. Forgive yourself that lapse and plan for the next time you find yourself in a similar situation. Simple solution. Shop on a full stomach. Many self-help programs have a mantra the reminds us to focus on each day as it comes. Seems overly simple, yet effective. Did you eat or do something you feel poorly about? Don’t wallow in it. Move on. You know you can do better tomorrow. No exercise today? Park at the end of the aisle instead as close to the door as you can get. Make a trip with each grocery bag instead of trying to haul it all in in one trip. My maternal grandmother was the queen at that. She would put upwards of 5 bags on each wrist, gasping for breath the entire time, stumble and sway her way to the front door from the car while my grandfather sauntered to the door with one small paper bag from the liquor store in his hand.
Back to the here and now.
Moving forward, I will still have posts pertaining to food and recipes. Ways to make things easier. Shortcuts and hacks. (Frags are still so much of how my brain works. I still write like I talk.) There will be posts on mindset. Our brains are so under-utilized in our modern society. There will be posts on self-care and kindness. As I’m navigating the second half of my first century, I’m realizing how important kindness to ones self really is.
I hope you stay.